From a young age I’ve always imagined myself growing up to live a “normal” life. Graduate high school, go to college, get a job, get married, have kids… Pretty much follow in my mother’s (amazing and wonderful) footsteps. This has been my plan for as long as I can remember. But now as I am finally getting close to that second step in my predetermined “life plan” I’m realizing that college might not be where God has planned me to be next year.
My life has changed so drastically in such a short amount of time. I am a completely different person than I was 365 days ago, and I could not be more thankful for that. In the past year God has pushed me off the pedestal I had put myself on; He has broken my pride and replaced it with a joyful heart. In the past year I have grown so much not only in my faith but as a mature human being, but I know I have so much growing left to do. Spending five weeks as The Lord’s humble servant in the canyon this summer turned my world upside down and made me realize I don’t know nearly as much as I thought I did.
With all of this on my mind and weighing on my heart I began my college applications (last week… oops). As I have worked on filling them out and writing my essays I have realized I don’t know myself nearly as much as I thought I did. I tell people I want to study business, but why? Am I really passionate about finance? No. Do I dream about working a nine to five job in a few years? Not at all. Will this bring the most glory to God? Unknown at the moment. These realizations have lead me to really think about if this is what God is really calling me to go and do next year, or if he has some other unimaginable plan for my life.
I guess what I am trying to say in this extremely wordy post is that I am considering taking a gap year after I graduate. Taking a year to fully discover myself and grow even more in my relationship with God before going on to college may be what is most beneficial for be in the long run. My research is just beginning but I would love to hear from anyone with gap year experience or who knows someone who has taken one. Any specific programs to suggest? This is something I will spend SO much time praying about and seeing what The Lord calls me to do. And who knows, I may end up going to college next year as planned. I don’t know much, but what I do know is that God has a plan for my life, and however unorthodox that plan is I need to make sure I am following it and giving him all the glory on the journey.